Its been 6 six years

still shedding old tears

flash backs regressions

catapult me into a deep depression

memories creep into my dreams only to awaken me to the obvious reality

Below zero sheets during mid summer nights heat combined with the ambience of a CD on repeat
3 o clock in the morning staring at a powerless tv screen.
Lights from the sidewalk slip passed the blinds swinging in slow motion

from the unfulfilled breaths in exhalation I struggle to find.

From 6 years ago

These windows of mine crave that angelic face

These arms of steal long to hold you at the waist
6 years ago
The chemistry of perfume and skin

the elixir you excrete from the neck I’d just die to taste again

Id just die again and again

and again and again. 

For one taste.

but……ive slowly been losing my mind since
 6 years ago
You’ve been in the front of my mind

since love colored everything I know blind

and ever since love has died youve been in the back of my mind
I guess it would be pointless to ask if I cross your mind

considering its been such a long time
WELL???  Do I?????
you’re my imaginations first happy thought

yesterdays today and probably tomorrows continuing sorrow
All I have it seems is a possibility, a half full bottle of brandy

and a broken dream

you would think drinking would numb or ease the pain 

the slowmotion

but I see that disorientation is hopeless

when trying to forget
 6 years ago